I’m too selfish to change for anyone ever again.
We had each other.
And our dreams too.
Who knew we’d discover
What it means to
Hold you close to my heart
Same place as my art.
That’s the place where it ends
And the place where it starts.
I could be
Visions of suicide
Take me away
Help me erase.
What else is there to say of this world? It could be said that Italians do not eat peanut butter, that love is not what we think it is, that sex and music are humans’ two greatest languages, that blackberries have no qualms with blueberries, and spider wasps provide great metaphors.
It could be said that magic is real, that a girl with loose auburn curls and the smile of a child could easily arouse it in your life, but that it takes considerable effort and intention to arouse it within yourself.
It could be said that a cherry pie knows everyone’s deepest secrets and still has room left for filling, or that hamsters — given the right diet — could make an entire island invisible.
It could be said that the Shaman is actually the second coming of Jesus. But it could also be said that he’s a lunatic with a weird grin and a past too sad for movies.
It could be said that a caterpillar must become soup before transforming into a butterfly, that disrupting the process could ruin everything.
It could be said that she is happy, and fulfilled, and that you have no idea what’s real anymore.
It could be said that the wheel is finally grinding to a halt, and that something else is there winking at you.
It could be said that I am not a writer at all, but an animated clump of flesh that will one day make a great dinner for a family of worms. And that any attempt I make to articulate the seering mystery of things is about as useful as a carton of old milk. It’s not going to do you any good for me to tell you how to live your life.
I was a child once.
Big nebulous dreams
Some of them nightmares. And that child has grown into a tangled mess of paradoxes. She’s basically a box of Christmas lights wrapped in garden hoses. She’s basically the human version of an alien. Her curls have been known to pick up radio transmissions from space, and every one of them sounds like Don Knotts playing the washboard.
Zero is more of a number then ten will ever be.
Twin flames are real but that doesn’t matter much at all.
Sometimes angels will tell you important things but you’re addicted to your cell phone so you’ll miss most of it.
Sometimes you write in the second person when referring to yourself.
I could be
I am afraid that if I go my own way, I will be completely alone in my path.
I never would have learned
What a boundary was.
Thanks for stomping on them
Until I figured it out.
I love you for that.
To me this is a matter of unraveling. I have in my life been made a bundle of paradoxes and unconscious impulses. To sift through and untangle them is to unravel my stuckness — to manifest what I feel to be an immense potential at the core of my being; potential for what I do not know. But I know it is there, waiting for me to figure it out — to unravel completely.
What has become of the Apple of my eye?
Has it tumbled down into the sea?
Has it fallen from branches, leaves, and stems?
And plunged to the base of a tree?
I wonder of the Apple of my eye
That ‘pon a time loved me.